I had been looking for some blue-red striped tricot for ages to replace one of my favourite shirts that I had to say goodbye to because it was synthetic and smelled. And it made me stink. And then I saw this discount-left-over black-red-orange striped fabric at the local fabric market, and I bought a couple meters of it, and now I wear this shirt all of the time. It is the shape I like, with a batwing-sleeve (I don’t know if that is a thing, but it is a literal translation of the Dutch term for that), and it is something that suggests boobs, but does not present them quite in the overpowering way that they actually are. Which is the handy for daily use. It is draped, but I changed the pattern, so now it is exactly what I like in my clothes. It is loose, but not so loose as to make it seem that I am wearing a bag, and not so long as to make it look as though I am wearing a dress (which is usual when you are my height, for example with this thing that was actually and xl-t-shirt but that is a dress for me). I still don’t know if I think this shirt looks good in a run-of-the-mill-flattering-making-me-look-thinner-and-boring-fashion-type way, but it does make me look how I feel inside, and it is precisely the color and graphic-design that I love and adore. It is also what my mum wears in pictures after she’s just had me, so in the early nineties. I don’t understand why we bring back the lovely and unflattering 90’s cuts and crop tops, but not the graphic and hectic patterns that came with it. Boo, normcore, for not repeating the 80’s and 90’s with the colours they so desperately need.